life

When The Stars Go Blue

2009-11-12T19:11:00.000-08:00

Tahukah kamu (orang) yang mendustakan agama?

2009-04-21T06:17:00.001-07:00

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيمِ
أَرَأَيْتَ الَّذِي يُكَذِّبُ بِالدِّينِ

[107:1] Tahukah kamu (orang) yang mendustakan agama?

فَذَلِكَ الَّذِي يَدُعُّ الْيَتِيمَ

[107:2] Itulah orang yang menghardik anak yatim,

وَلَا يَحُضُّ عَلَى طَعَامِ الْمِسْكِينِ

[107:3] dan tidak menganjurkan memberi makan orang miskin.

فَوَيْلٌ لِّلْمُصَلِّينَ

[107:4] Maka kecelakaanlah bagi orang-orang yang shalat,

الَّذِينَ هُمْ عَن صَلَاتِهِمْ سَاهُونَ

[107:5] (yaitu) orang-orang yang lalai dari shalatnya,

الَّذِينَ هُمْ يُرَاؤُونَ

[107:6] orang-orang yang berbuat riya

وَيَمْنَعُونَ الْمَاعُونَ

[107:7] dan enggan (menolong dengan) barang berguna

Donor Mata

2009-03-23T05:46:00.000-07:00

Kemana badan kita setelah mati? di dalam tanah, membusuk begitu saja, ter-urai bersatu kembali dengan tanah, ada juga yang hanya mengering. Yang jelas, semua kembali menyatu dengan bumi dan tidak berfungsi lagi.

Sungguh sayang kalau semua bagian tubuh kita akhirnya hanya akan membusuk, tidak berguna.

Lalu, kenapa kita tidak donor mata saja, di Indonesia sudah ada bank mata, yang menerima donor atau calon donor yang nantinya akan di pasangkan pada orang-orang yang membutuhkan (semoga saja tidak dijual oleh oknum yang tidak bertanggung jawab)

penerima donor tentu saja akan sangat terbantu, dan mata kita tidak akan membusuk sia-sia setelah kita mati.

Jika Anda ingin menjadi calon pendonor mata, datang saja ke Bank Mata Pusat Jl. Letjen S. Parman Kav 87/A3 Jakarta 11420 Telp. 5684527 atau Fax: 62-21-5684527\r\n- Calon donor mata kemudian mengisi formulir yang harus disetujui oleh suami/istri, atau ahli waris lain. Bagi yang masih belum berkeluarga, persetujuan bisa dari orangtua. Calon pendonor mata akan menjadi bagian dari Perkumpulan Penyantun Mata Tuna Netra dan diberi kartu anggota lengkap dengan pasfoto. Kartu itu sebaiknya selalu dibawa ke mana pun Anda berada.

Tidak semua orang bisa menyumbangkan matanya jika sudah meninggal. Mereka yang tidak bisa menjadi donor mata jika:

Matanya rusak, misalnya bagian hitam pada bola mata sudah berubah menjadi keputihan akibat kecelakaan atau infeksi.

Mereka yang pernah mengalami operasi katarak.

Penderita glaukoma

Mereka yang mempunyai penyakit kronis akibat virus, seperti hepatitis B dan C, atau AIDS. Pada orang yang menderita penyakit-penyakit tersebut, virus biasanya juga menyebar ke bagian mata.

Mereka yang menderita cytomegalo virus dan menimbulkan Meningitis.

Mereka yang meninggal karena rabies.

Mereka yang menderita kanker sistemis semisal leukimia.

mari kita berbuat sesuatu yang berguna...

membangun onlineshop dengan prestashop

2009-01-02T04:07:00.000-08:00

Akhirnya ketemu juga opensource CMS untuk e-commerce yang ringan dan cepat. prestashop namanya. CMS ini instalasinya cukup mudah dan costumisasinya juga tidak begitu sulit. Karena masih tergolong baru, themenya masih belom banyak. Tapi sudah ada juga lho, yang gratis dan yang mbayar, yang mbayar harganya antara 10 - 150 USD, lumayan lah.
Akan tetapi yang defaultnyapun juga sudah enak kok, sudah saya cicipin habis separo... :D
tampilanya terkesan mahal
coba deh kalo ga percaya,
ada kesempatan berbisnis lho.. coba bikin aja theme prestashop dan di jual, sepertinay bakalan laris.
sama oscommerce saya pikir bagusan ini kok..
coba deh
langsung ke TKP aja prestashop.com
coba sendiri, dan rasakan aja bedanya...
kalau ada pertanyaan, tanya aja sama wikinya
hehehehe
conto yang udah jadi tuh di bisnisgrosir.com
di liat ya.. ntar kalo udah online bukan dengan demo produk, beli skalian.. lebih bagus..
:D

Simbah

2008-11-25T22:34:00.000-08:00

Gerimis cukup deras waktu itu, angin tiba-tiba saja bertiup resah, suara daun-daun sengon sampai terdengar mendesah.
Lebaran hari pertama saat itu, ketika semua senyum terkembang, ketika semua harapan datang.
Kau selau ingat berapa hari aku pergi, pon, wage ,kliwon, legi, pahing. Sudah berapa lapan aku nggak pulang. Dan pagi Jumat kliwon itu kau pergi.
simbah, aku kangen kau..
Masih jelas dalan ingatan kau ceritakan pertemuanmu dengan mbah kakung, kau ceritakan ketika wabah pes menyerang di gubuk-gubuk bilik pengungsi, kau ceritakan ketika kau dan ibuk berlarian menghindari serangan Belanda, kau ceritakan para petani mengejar pesawat dengan membawa bambu runcing, kau ceritakan semua hidupmu..
aaah simbah...
tak kuasa ku tahan air mata..

save our children

2008-11-17T19:23:00.000-08:00

Banyak sekali anak-anak yang seharusnya bisa sekolah, bisa bermain dan bisa menikmati masa kecil mereka. Banyak di antara mereka yang kehilangan semua itu.

Mari, mulailah dari kita sendiri, selamatkan generasi muda bangsa ini. Mulai dari lingkungan sekitar kita, sumbangkan sebagian pendapatan anda untuk mereka. bantu mereka melanjutkan sekolah. menikmati masa kecil mereka.

Ada banyak sekali komunitas ini itu, anda semua bisa bergabung dan memberi arti kepada hidup banyak anak bangsa.
kumpulkan 1000, 5000, 10.000 atau berapapun di komunitas anda, berikan ke panti asuhan atau tempat-tempat yang bisa membantu anak-anak untuk tetap belajar, berkembang dan mengembangkan bakat mereka.
mulailah dari kita sendiri.

rasakan kenikmatan dan keindahan hidup dengan memberi.

“I cannot think of any need in childhood as strong as the need for a father's protection.” -Sigmund Freud

Sarung Bantal Keren

2008-11-16T20:09:00.000-08:00

Pemesanan ke kagecio@yahoo.com atau phone 08179463941

Sarung Bantal tanpa isi segitiga 30 = 20.000, dengan isi 35.000

Guling panjang 50 tanpa isi = 27.500
Guling panjang 50 dengan isi = 50.000

Sarung Bantal tanpa isi
ukuran 30x30 = 20.000
ukuran 30x40 = 20.000
segitiga 30 = 20.000
Sarung bantal dengan isi (dakron)
ukuran 30x30 = 35.000
ukuran 30x40 = 35.000
segitiga 30 = 35.000

Taplak meja
ukuran 160x160 = 100.000
bunder diamater 160 = 100.000
ukuran 160x240 = 110.000
oval 160x240 = 110.000

Minimum Pembelian 6 pcs
ongkos kirim belum termasuk

Ain't no sunshine

2008-11-14T03:32:00.000-08:00

Apa ini?

2008-11-14T03:01:00.000-08:00

Ku bungkus dan ku telan,
nyeseg memang, buntalan sebesar itu, juga isi yang, mungkin aku sendiri ga akan bisa menelan kalau membayangkan bentuknya. Tapi ya hanya aku yang bisa menelan, orang lain? tidak. Terlalu pahit mungkin, atau terlalu kasar di tenggorokan, atau terlalu besar untuk mulut manusia yang sebesar ini.
Ku bungkus dan ku telan,
ingin rasanya pingsan saja, atau tidur setahun seperti ular, biar bungkusan itu berjalan di kerongkonganku yang sempit tanpa terasa. Tau-tau udah di perut gitu aja.
Tapi,
apa hebatnya kopi tanpa kita merasakan pahitnya.

menghela nafas, panjang...
ooooommmmmmmmmmmmmm....... satu mantra budha ku ucapkan sambil bermeditasi merasakan getaran alam semesta... ooommmmm.......

Ku bungkus dan ku telan,
bersama nafas panjang yang mungkin saja segera menghabis. bersama mantra yang selalu ku ucapkan, bersama terbersihkannya cakra-cakra yang sinarnya memburai seperti usus arya penangsang yang terburai oleh kerisnya sendiri. bersama...
bersama sesak nafasku sendiri yang tak kuasa menahan ngeri..
yaa.. hanya aku sendiri yang paham, mungkin..

Salah siapa?
aku ingat ralph marston bicara, "tidak perlu menyalahkan orang lain atas apa yang terjadi padamu, itu hanya akan membuat semua lebih buruk." "If you fall, improve, improve!"

eh.. mungkin ini jalan menuju kehampaan, hampa.. bukan kosong,
"ehmm kau harus bisa bedakan hampa dan kosong ya.." masih tergiang juga kata-kata orang tua di sebuah halte bus di jakarta yang secara tak sengaja ku temukan.
"Mungkin kamu akan segera mati nak" begitu dia bilang..

Pizza Nasi

2008-08-31T21:55:00.000-07:00

Resep masakan ini ditemukan secara sengaja, atas dasar keinginan untuk masak ngawur dengan hasil yang bagus, paling ga bentuknya bagus.Biasanya bikin pizza mie, neh mau nyoba bikin pizza nasi,tapi dengan bumbu yang berbeda tentunya.

Bahan yang diperlukan:
nasi yang tidak lembek 1 piring
1 butir telor ayam
3 sendok makan penuh tepung terigu
1/4 bungkus bahan sup cream
1/2 sendok teh baking powder
1/2 sendok teh garam halus
5 sendok makan saos tomat atau sesuai selera
3 sendok makan saos sambel
1 butir bawang bombay
3 butir bawang putih cincang/haluskan
keju secukupnya
bisa di tambah daging asap atau sosis

Cara memasak:
campurkan telor ayam, terigu, cream sup, baking powder, garam, bawang putih cincang, kocok dan aduk hingga berbentuk adonan.
Masukkan nasi, di tambah parutan keju secukupnya , aduk hingga rata, jangan terlalu basah.
masukkan ke dalam loyang/wajan teflon, ratakan

campur saos tomat dan sambel, lalu oleskan ke atas adonan tadi,
tempeli dengan bawang bombay yang sudah di iris dan sosis atau daging asap.
paruti keju di atasnya
panggang di dalam oven, atau di atas api kecil, tutup rapat, tunggu sekitar 20 menit.
jadi deh
selamat mencoba

Jathilan

2008-08-23T02:06:00.000-07:00

Awal agustus, saya mendapat kesempatan untuk melihat kembali sebuah kesenian tradisional jawa yang lama telah tak saya lihat, Jathilan. Sebuah kesenian yang sudah cukup tua umurnya, di gunakan oleh orang jawa untuk berkomunikasi dengan arwah leluhur, dan Yang mbaurekso desa.
Dengan dandanan yang cukup ngawur untuk ukuran para perias modern, kesenian ini di mainkan oleh 14 orang laki-laki yang dibagi dalam dua kelompok yang di dalam ceritanya, saling bermusuhan.
Selama perang tanding antara dua kelompok itu, yang tentunya berupa tarian-tarian perangnya, akan terjadi kesurupan, trance, di mana arwah akan masuk ke dalam tubuh pemain. Dalam kesurupan itu, tak jarang penduduk setempat menanyakan kepada yang kesurupan tentang obat untuk keluarganya yang sedang sakit, atau hal-hal yang mungkin akan terjadi di desanya.

Di banyak desa di jawa tengah kesenian ini masih ada dan dilestarikan, akan tetapi di beberapa wilayah, kesurupannya telah di hilangkan, karena di anggap tidak sesuai dengan ajaran agama yang dianut.

The Dark Knight

2008-07-22T00:37:00.000-07:00

Bisa jadi, film ini akan menjadi salah satu best movie of the year, karena emang bener-bener bagus.
Akan tetapi, cocok-kah film ini untuk anak-anak?
saya kira tidak. Di dalam film ini terlalu banyak kekerasan, terlalu banyak hal yang tidak bagus untuk ditonton oleh anak-anak. Bisa jadi emreka akan sangat ketakutan dan terbayang-bayang muka two-face yang begitu mengerikan, dan juga intimidasi joker yang begitu gila.

Kalau saya lihat film ini, ini adalah film batman yang paling membuat saya ikut mikir, dan juga terkaget-kaget, apalagi saya nontonnya di barisan yang termasuk depan. jadi semua tampak besar dan kalau ada kejutan menjadi barisan yang paling kaget.
Tonton aja film ini, bagus kok, tapi jangan ajak anak kecil..
kalau mau nonton online, ini linknya "Batman: The Dark Knight"

ketika perjalanan terhenti

2008-06-30T20:42:00.000-07:00

ada kalanya perjalanan kita terhenti begitu saja, semua di depan terlihat begitu gelap, tidak tau lagi apa yang akan kita lakukan, tidak tau lagi kemana harus melangkah. Ketika harapan besar yang telah kita pupuk setelah sekian lama tiba-tiba menjadi suram, ntah disebabkan oleh apa, tiba-tiba menjadi seolah jalan yang kita lalui tak ada ujung.
semua tiba-tiba menjadi kosong, tak ada lagi pegangan, pijakan yang telah sekian lama dibangun tiba-tiba runtuh.. mungkin akan habis semua...
sedih memang,

lalu apa yang harus kita lakukan?
fokus? fokus kemana? karena begitu kita salah menentukan fokus semua akan menjadi lebih buruk.
kembali ke tujuan awal? tujuan yang mana?

puncak tujuan hidup ini akan selalu terlihat setiap saat kita berjalan,
misteri dan ketidak tahuan, juga kebimbangan dan keyakinan adalah bumbu-bumbu yang akan menambah nikmat rasa masakan perjalanan.proses adalah sebuah seni yang indah yang layak diabadikan dalam bingkai kearifan.
terima dengan senyum semua yang datang kepada kita karena itu adalah hal yang terbaik yang layak kita dapatkan. Lihat apa yang kita punya dan kita memiliki semua, lihat apa yang kita tidak punya dan kita tak punya apa-apa.
bersyukur dan nikmati semua keindahan ini

Groaning The Blues

2008-06-23T05:41:00.000-07:00

I'm so tired of moaning, trying to groan away my blues.
I'm so tired of moaning, trying to groan away my blues.
I keep weeping and crying every time I think of you.

I would rather die of starvation, perish out in the desert sun,
I would rather die of starvation, perish out in the desert sun,
Than to think of some other man holding you in his arms.

My heart gets so heavy, Lord I shakes down in my bones.
My heart gets so heavy, Lord I shakes down in my bones.
I can't hurt a murderer, oh Lord, but I'm forced to weep and moan.

Understanding the Organic Food Definition

2008-06-17T04:11:00.000-07:00

The key to successfully recognizing organic food is to see the United States Department of Agriculture (USDA) certification label on the products you are purchasing. This organic label guarantees that the product you buy is organic and has been produced and handled as outlined by the particular national standards provided to farmers and other organizations directly involved in food handling. As of October 2002, in an effort to set up a standard for the organic food definition, the USDA organic seal ordered that a product is a least 95% organic. This means that to put the organic label on the product, organic food must be free from any chemicals and bio-engineering that is standard in the production of conventional food. The integrity of the program depends on the producers (farmers) and food handlers’ conscientious effort to produce quality meats, poultry, dairy products, fruits, and vegetables in harmony with our environment. Farmers that are caught using the USDA seal while knowingly violating the standards procedure can be penalized up to 10,000 for each offence.

The definition of organic food clearly states that products labelled “USDA Organic” are guaranteed under the guidelines of the Organic Foods Production Act to be produced without using any types of conventional fertilizers and pesticides and other environmentally unfriendly methods. The integrity of the program relies on the farmers and food handlers’ conscientious effort to produce quality meats, poultry, dairy, fruits and vegetables in harmony with our environment.

Organic Versus Natural

It is important to understand that the definition of “natural” food and definition of “organic” food is not the same thing. If something says “natural” it does not mean that the product has been produced in accordance with the “organic” specifications. The uses of terms such as natural, hormone-free and free-range do not guarantee that the product is “organic.” It is only when you see the USDA organic stamp that you know the product has met the USDA organic standards.

How To Identify Organic Food

Today, the easiest way on identifying organic food is to look for the “USDA Organic” food label. This label guarantees the consumers that the product they buy is organic and has been inspected by an authorized expert. The definition of organic food, as defined by the USDA, is that the product must be 95% or more organic. There are several strict guidelines that are outlined for the farmers and food handlers to follow when growing, preparing and processing the food products.

Organic Food Benefits

The environmentally friendly practices involved in growing organic food products enhances the overall health of our planet; our soil, plants, animals and people all benefit from our decision to “go organic”. Certified Organic guarantees that the product has been inspected by a private certification organization or non-profit agency that is approved by the United States Department of Agriculture (USDA). The inspector evaluates and verifies that tall products labelled organic meet the definitions established by the USDA organic standards. It is important to be understood that the organic food definition is specific to how the food product is grown, processed and handled prior to its’ delivery to the consumer.

JAVANESE MYSTICAL MOVEMENTS

2008-06-09T03:36:00.000-07:00

Introduction

*North Indian shaman*

There are numerous forms of mysticism. The majestic grandeur of nature evoked an intuitive awe in man and a feeling of unity. Some time in history members of the homo sapiens species began directing their attention inside themselves as they received indications of a magical and spiritual nature.
In early cultures groups formed around a person who seemed through some strange play of nature be possessed with extraordinary powers and insights. Some call them medicine man, or shamans.

In modern culture mysticism is seen as the practice of communion and adoration of man of his divine nature.
It takes all forms, though. On this page an introduction to Javanese mysticism, the origins of which little is known as its early adherents committed little to writing.

ANTHROPOLOGY AND JAVANESE MYSTICAL MOVEMENTS

During the last decades Javanese mysticism has become more and more of interest to anthropologists. They base their books, articles, doctoral theses, etc. partly on Dutch studies during their colonial past, partly on their own observations during field-work. Java is particularly fascinating because its culture bears traces of various religions.

*'Kresna', wayang puppet*

The original religion of Java was animistic. Prevailing was the belief in powers, nature-spirits and souls of the deceased hidden in the unseen world. The selamatan is considered to be part of that folklore. This gathering is held at specific dates such as the third, seventh, fortieth, hundredth, and thousandth anniversary of the decease of a relative. The food eaten is meant to be a sacrifice for the soul of the dead person. After a thousand days the soul is supposed to have disintegrated or reincarnated. Prof.J.M.van der Kroef writes: "The homeostasis sought via the selamatan has an animistic background which is part of the Javanese cosmology: man is surrounded by spirits and deities, apparitions and mysterious supernatural forces, which, unless he takes the proper precautions, may disturb him or even plunge him into disaster."

Anthropologist Clifford Geertz divides the Javanese population in three main groups: the abangan, the priyayi and the santri. The Abangan (Agami Jawi) are nominal Muslim, but to a great extent they are guided by the ancient belief, the kejawen. Dr.S. de Jong: "Flora and fauna have like man a soul. The animal and vegetable soul is deeper sunk in material existence than the human soul. Therefore certain plants and animals may be harmful...The Godhead towers above in serene rest and offers no assistance. The abangan remain two possibilities: surrender -rela-, and worship -bekti. The primitive main concepts recur in 20th century mystical groups, may have never been absent."

In the 5th century Hinduism was introduced in Java and struck root. One thousand years later it was followed by Islam. The form of Islam that reached Java had already undergone Ishmaili Shi'ah influences. In Java it was again adapted to suit the existing Hindu and animistic elements. Sufi mysticism was embraced particularly, because it coincided with the existing way of thought. Sufi brotherhoods - tarekats - of the Sufi orders of Naqshabandiyya, Qadiriyya, and Shattariyya were formed and spread slowly.

Towards the middle of the 19th century opportunity arose for the Muslim population to have more contact with their fellow-believers. This led to a reform movement to rid Indonesian Islam of Hindu-Javanese elements. The Santri belong to this part of the population. They condemn such diversions as Wayang performances and selamatans. They reject the belief in the unity of man and God, in rasa(feeling) over akal(reason).

Eling, the deepest aspect of the inner life of the Javanese

Mysticism may be said to permeate Javanese life and consequently its vocabulary. Certain Javanese words are hard to understand for us in all their shades of meaning. One is "culture". Another is "jiwa," which may mean life, but also enthusiasm, spirit, inner self, thought, feeling, mentality, essence, and implication.
Eling (pronounced "ailing") is another one of these frequently used terms that defy translation. The word can only be understood by looking at its context. Javanese will understand it intuitively. It may mean "one of the jiwa's powers", "an ethical value", or "a level of depth in religious awareness".

Eling as one of the jiwa's powers

Basically eling means "remember." With reference to the powers of the jiwa the word covers everything ever experienced physically or spiritually. Next to the faculties of the jiwa of sight, hearing, speaking, and thinking, eling connects earlier experiences to what is being experienced now, making one aware that personal experience is an ongoing process. The I, who was in bad shape financially last year, is now making money. Memory underlies all personal identity. Not only that, it means being conscious of the consequences of our actions and our individual responsibility. Therefore, eling in its basic meaning is of great importance to the concept of self-awareness, considered of great importance in Javanese philosophy.

Another meaning of "eling" is a return to consciousness after fainting.

Eling as an ethical value

When a person loses self control, as in sorrow, anger, or disorientation, the Javanese will usually advise that it is necessary to eling. In other words not be overwhelmed by feelings, mixed-up thoughts, or anger. In this case, eling means to regain self control.

Self control to the Javanese is of high value, if not the highest. In this context, eling has more the meaning of consciousness than remembering. It refers to a high level of self-awareness that enables the individual to observe and control all movements of the self, both inner and outer - its actions, words, and thoughts. By being on guard we enable ourselves to remain in the state of eling

In his life the Javanese must be willing and able to see into the depths of everything he encounters and to remain always in a state of eling. It requires the highest level of awareness to observe and maintain control over all the movements of the outer and inner selves. This involves two-way traffic. Being in a state of eling his words and thoughts will attract attention as being important and thus will be heeded.
He will be prevented from falling for the five forbidden things: getting drunk, smoking, opium, stealing, gambling, and whoring. Not only that, he will be saved from an overly materialistic outlook of desiring only for his own benefit.

Being attracted to inward and outward pleasures is in conflict with eling and prevent the Javanese from staying in that state. That is why he is advised to eat and sleep less in order to reduce the conflict in himself caused by the nafsu (passions). This will help him to become more aware and capable of self control.

Other dangers are lying, boasting, and hypocrisy - all ways of showing off the ego and overstepping the boundaries of self control. A Javanese saying states it well: "We have to learn to feel pain when we are glad and gladness when we are in pain." Then we can be said to have become eling.
The method for achieving this is based on inner quietness.

Eling as a level of depth in religious awareness

In this context eling refers to a high level of religious awareness or experience. This is based on meneng (being silent) and wening meaning clarity, purity, transparency. This requires that the role of the ego be reduced so that the person is no longer vulnerable to arrogance, pride, outward pleasures, or material gain.

If the aspiring Javanese trains himself by means of silence, he will see more clearly with his inner eyes, making it possible to see the essence of things, to remove the veil of mere appearances and temporary values. Once he reaches this stage of eling he will draw closer to God. There will no longer be a separation between subject and object, microcosm and macrocosm, or creature and Creator. The sweetness will no longer be separate from the honey.

At a still higher level of eling all names and forms will vanish. There will be only emptiness. This is called the experience of ilang (lost), suwung (vacant), sirna (gone), komplang (empty), also called "dead in life". It requires a strong faith to overcome all obstacles and fear.

To conclude, Eling is a much used word in Javanese because of its close connection to the deepest attitude of the Javanese to his inner life. It is operative not only in religion, but also in everyday life and in their ethical norms. So religious and mystical life, which is usually considered exclusive and individual, permeates the way Javanese people live from day to day. The inner levels neng, ning, and eling are not reserved for religion and mystical observances alone, but are embedded in the Javanese way of life. They are in the background of their dealing with ordinary problems involving ethics, education, economics, philosophy, security, and politics. The Javanese try to solve problems with a clear eye and an inner calm that arises from their deepest inner attitude: eling.
(Subagio Sastrowardoyo, (free) translation Mansur Medeiros)

How a good Javanese should deport himself properly against the background of mysticism has been laid down in two books in the nineteenth century: Wulangreh (Lessons in behaviour), by Paku Buwana IV) and Wedhatama (Excellent teaching), by R.Ng. Ranggawarsita. Both are very similar short works in tembang (fairly modern Javanese song lyrics). They are still being read and reprinted.

Priyayi

The above observations are particularly true for the priyayi type Javanese. To this group belong the descendants of the aristocracy of the Javanese courts of Yogyakarta and Surakarta, who the Dutch won over to become members of the appointive civil service in colonial times. Nowadays they constitute the intelligentsia of Java. They have their roots in the Hindu-Javanese courts of pre- colonial times. A noble and pure character is attributed to them. They were the bearers of the mystic court-traditions taught to them by highly revered guru's.

*Wayang shadowplay performance*

Priyayi conserved and cultivated the art of dance, drama, music and poetry. Sunan (=king) Kalidjogovan(also called Kalidjaga) is credited by some to have given the ancient Wayang play its present form. Before it was part of the Javanese ancestor-worship. The shadow figures represent the spirits of the dead. Subsequently the Hindu epics Mahabharta and Ramayana were introduced and integrated in Wayang performances.

The language used is often based on Sanskrit words: Susila = chaste,ethical; Budhi = Buddhi = intelligence; Dharma = norm, customary observance (J.Gonda).
In mysticism, as we have seen above, these words take on a different meaning. To live according to one's dharma and the rules of social order is to fulfil "the will of God"(kodrat).
In Javanese mysticism one learns that it is good to honour one's superiors...justice and well-being are expected to flow from above, to originate from a bapak who in his turn derives his power for protection from a higher bapak, etc., until one reaches the realm of supernature and the leader "by the grace of God".

All of nature is endowed with souls. Prof.van der Kroef notes: Monistic identification is carried to great lengths: vegetable and animal "essences" shape human personality and destiny (e.g. after eating goat's meat "the goat's tendency to get lost will be manifested in the man as the desire in all circumstances to follow his own impulses") and pantheistic unity is accepted as a matter of course (e.g. "in the world of fishes there are many that serve God with faith and, moreover, are not neglectful in the manner of their prayers...").

Two characteristics of Javanese mysticism

The Javanese mystical tradition is known for its syncretism. In the course of its history it absorbed all the religious traditions that reached Java and gave it its own interpretation.

The aim of the Javanese mystical tradition is that of experiencing unity with God. Among the techniques to achieve this is the dihkr (repetitive prayer), fasting, sleep deprivation, and withdrawal from the world. The purpose of ascetism being purification, facilitating direct communication with the divine world.

Dissent between mystical movements

Between the three groups of abangan, priyayi and santri had always been an area of tension. The Santri accused the other two groups of mixing Islam with Javanism. Prof.van der Kroef: "Conflict, even violence ... has repeatedly occurred between adherents of these groups, frequently involving a clash between provisions of the local adat (customary law) and hukum (Islamic law)...".

The mystical Baduys

In West Java, near the city of Rangkasbitung, South Bantam, lies the mysterious Baduy territory. Outsiders may not enter it. The Baduys guard zealously the mysteries of Javanese mysticism from the dawn of Javanese history. They were respected and consulted by the Javanese Sultans on East Java in olden times as well as the recent rulers of Indonesia. Their territory has no direct goverment interference and as money is taboo there no taxes are levied there.

In the heart of Baduy country, enclosed by a jungle, lies the megalitic sanctuary Sasaka Domas, or Many Stones. No one is allowed to come near it.

The Baduys are regarded as one of the last surviving mandala communities on Java. Members of these communities lived an ascetic life, based on guide lines of the old Sundanese -Hindu/Buddhistic/animistic beliefs, known as Kejawen. It withstood the Islamizing of the country. The Baduy call their religion Sunda Wiwitan [earliest Sundanese]. They were almost totally free of Islamic elements (except those imposed over the past 20 years), they also display very few Hindu characteristics.

Based on a system of taboos, the Baduy religion is animistic. They believe spirits inhabit the rocks, trees, streams and other inanimate objects. These spirits do good or evil depending on one’s observance of the taboos. Thousands of taboos apply to every aspect of daily life.Their lives are governed by interdictions as to possessing property, keeping cattle, laying out sawahs (rice fields), cultivating new products, etc. Their priest-kings are not allowed to leave the territory, to pass the night outside their village, or to communicate with outsiders. The Baduy grow all their own food and make their own tools and clothes. They reject any introduction of artifacts from outside.

Outsiders are not allowed to enter the inner domain which is inhabited by forty families dressed mostly in white. Population is strictly limited. When the limit is exceeded, the surplus population is sent away to live outside the community as Outer Baduy. Though they try to observe the taboos of the Inner Baduy, there is much pressure on them to relax the rules. Even so, they maintain their identity as Baduy to a remarkable degree.

The Indonesian government has attempted to socialize them, and this effort was claimed to have led to a greater openness among the Baduy to the idea of communicating with the outside world. It remains to be seen if this opening up will not lead to a loss of this precious enclave of Javanese mysticism.

Postwar spiritual movements

In colonial times the Dutch Government kept a sharp eye on these movements including the tarekat Sufi brotherhoods who often stirred up uprisings fired by messianic and millenarian expectations. The Indonesian Government followed this policy because it was afraid of communist infiltration into these groups. To keep an eye on them it required the mystical movements (aliran kepercayaan ) to be registered.
In 1947 Subud was registered in Yogyakarta as being founded in Semarang in 1932.
The Bureau for Supervision of Religious Movements (Pakem) under the Ministry of Religious affairs had in 1964 360 movements registered. In 1982 there were 93 groups with in total 123,570 members in Central Java alone.
Pangestu claims to have 50.000 members, Sapta Darma 10.000.

Some aliran kebatinan (another name for spiritual movements) who lean towards Islam dislike being equated with the more obscure Javanese sects who are not averse towards guna-guna, Javanese black magical practices. These groups are formed around a teacher, who claims to have received enlightment (Wahyu).
Hundreds of such groups are known to exist. Their gurus usually claim originality for their revelation or intuitive insight while rejecting knowledge from books or the influence of tradition. When the guru dies, the group often dissolves.

Sumarah

A dissertation (D.G.Howe) and a thesis (Paul Stange) have been devoted to this brotherhood. Its founder, Sukinohartono, was opened by Subud helper Wignosupartono. The latter was known for his healing powers and was also the first person to be opened by Pak Subuh, founder of Subud. Sukinohartono had himself a revelation thereafter in 1932. He underwent a series of experiences from 1935 until 1937. After an intense cleansing Sukino was given to understand that he would receive guidance through hakiki and the angel Gabriel. He was taken in sequence through nine spiritual stages. Stange: "The dimensions he passed through parallel the realms discussed in classical mystical literature, mirror the descriptions found in wayang and Sufism."

Sukinohartono reported a.o. encounters with Jesus Christ and Prophet Muhammad. In 1949 Sukinohartono had another revelation. Neighbours related that they had seen a wahyu celestial light fall on Sukino's house during the night. Sukino also received "clear guidance to the effect that he had to lead humanity toward total submission to God."

In Sumarah there were two levels of practice: kanoman and kasepuhan. Kanoman exercises took three principal forms: karaga, meaning automatic movement; karasa: sensitizing of intuition; and kasuara: spontaneous speech. These were understood as being the result of the movement of God's power within the candidate.

For elders and those mature in spirit was a second initiation: the kasepuan silent meditation. The latter became the standard practice. The kanoman exercise came in disregard after 1949. The same applied to the separation of the sexes and facing Mecca during the exercise. In the early days there was also an intense "checking" of members' progress.

On their website Sumarah is explained as follows: "Sumarah is a philosophy of life and a form of MEDITATION that originally comes from Java, Indonesia. The practice is based on developing sensitivity and acceptance through DEEP RELAXATION of body, feelings and mind. Its aim is to create inside our self the inner space and the silence necessary for the true self to manifest and to speak to us. The word Sumarah means total surrender, a confident and conscious surrender of the partial ego to the universal self. The total surrender is to Life."

Recently meditation workshops all over the world have sprung up. See Sumarah Meditation International Network links below.

Subud

Subud has a place apart amongst these kepercayaan. In most movements meditation is being practised. Subud appears to lean most to the Sufi tarekat tradition, yet bears santri and priyayi influences. Their spiritual excercise, the latihan, appears to be quite unique, however. I have yet to come across a similar exercise in the descriptions of other disciplines. Of course, if one were to term the latihan "ecstatic" several other parallels may be found in other countries and in history (early Christianity).

Presentday Javanese mysticism

As seen above Indonesian mysticism developed in many forms, some clouding its deep inner essence.

It is regrettable that younger Indonesian generations seem to have lost interest to develop their innate gift to transcend sensory reality to tune into their deepest spiritual nature, especially in the present strive between religious factions. Syncretism, characteristic of Javanese mysticism, is known to bridge outer differences and foster understanding between all people.
May be the day will come that the tremendous value of Javanese mysticism will be rediscovered. Its great tradition may need to be transplanted in order to be brought into blossom again.

Incense, flowers are powerful communication tools

If the above gives the impression that mysticism has disappeared from Javanese life the Jakarta Post ran a series of articles on mysticism in August 2002. Some of its contents:

Mysticism has become a part of modern people's lives. Those seeking advice from psychics include educated people and even those who are religious, such as Minister of Religious Affairs Said Agil Al Munawar. Less than two weeks ago, the minister made headlines when he ordered a treasure hunt at a protected heritage site in Bogor, West Java, following the advice of a psychic. [In Indonesian, "psychic" = "kejiwaan."]

Agil said that if the treasure was found, it would be able to cover the country's foreign debt of US$130 billion. The Jakarta Post is running a series of stories surrounding mysticism. This story and a related one on page 8 on August 26,2002, were written by Muninggar Sri Saraswati.

While cellular phones and the Internet are the most popular methods of communication by urbanites, there are some who choose kemenyan (incense) and flowers. Some people in Java burn incense and put flowers sprayed with perfume to communicate with spirits of the dead to gain peace of mind, solve problems in life or cure diseases.

The employee of a private company in the Kuningan area of South Jakarta, Soenaryo told The Jakarta Post that he started seeing a spiritualist five years ago when he was facing a problem at his company.
"Nobody could help me at the time. A friend of mine suggested that I see a spiritualist and I did. The spiritualist told me that I have to burn incense and put a plate of flowers and two eggs in my room while I meditated," Soenaryo said.

Although he felt a bit awkward, he obeyed the order and requested the spirits of his ancestors to ask God to help him. Amazingly, Soenaryo found a solution to the problem and he was promoted. He has since become a loyal client of the spiritualist's, who lives in Paseban, Central Jakarta. He has also regularly provided offerings, particularly when he has a problem in life.

"It's only a medium to God, which you might think is strange," said Soenaryo, adding that he makes the offerings every kliwon, or once every Javanese five-day week.

Another customer, Warti, told the Post that she bought incense and flowers for her employer, a middle-aged woman who is a banker.
"She has given offerings and burned incense for two years, when her marriage was in trouble. She usually does it in the morning. She also takes baths with petals in the water at night," said the maid, who buys the items for her every Friday.

Marni, an incense and flower vendor, said that business had been brisk since she opened shop 10 years ago, with most people buying the items usually for funeral rituals.
"The number of people buying these items for mystical purposes started to increase during the economic crisis," she said, referring to the Asian crisis which hit the country in 1997.

Another vendor at Rawa Belong market, West Jakarta, agreed. "There are not as many people buying flowers and incense for mystical purposes as those who buy them for funeral rituals, but they are loyal customers. They come once a week or twice a month," said Tedi, who has been in the business for over eight years.

Trances in modern Indonesian society

Spiritual fervour - going into a trance - is a rather common phenomenon in Indonesia, particularly among factory workers.
All over the Indonesian archipelago there are reports of schoolchildren, young women and factory workers going into mass trances or speaking in tongues.

National television showed in February 2008 eleven students and five teachers going into mass trance in a classroom. About 50 female workers at a garment factory near Jakarta were reported to have gone into a collective trance in June 2007, weeping and jerking their bodies around.

Religion, education and development have done little to halt widespread acceptance of the supernatural in Indonesia. In Indonesia, trance is tied up with culture, explained Lidia Laksana Hidajat, from the psychology faculty of Jakarta's Atma Jaya University.

Lina, 23, said she has been possessed many times in the past six years, always by the same "jinn" or evil spirit. Its face is exactly the same face as my older sister but the body is hard to make out. It calls my name but if I follow it, it disappears, she said. Lina said that mass trances were so common at the Malang cigarette factory, where she worked, that she quit eventually .

Indonesian media reported a group trance among workers at Bentoel's cigarette factory in Malang, Java, in March 2006. Hidajat interviewed 30 of the affected women, who say they were sitting in rows in a long hall, rolling the cigarettes by hand when it happened. They were working in silence. That's one of the requirements of a trance to happen - it's usually quiet and when they are engaged in monotonous activity, she said.
Suddenly, one of the workers started screaming and her body went stiff. The one next to her started crying and went stiff too, triggering a domino effect. A Muslim leader was summoned, but his prayers had no effect. The exhausted women fell asleep and when they awoke they remembered nothing.

Hidajat found there were common factors between the trance victims she interviewed.
Often they are people who are very religious or under pressure. They were also from low socio-economic backgrounds, she said.

Eko Susanto Marsoeki, the director of Malang's Lawang Psychiatric Hospital, said overwork was closely linked to mass trance incidents in factories. Often it is a form of protest that will not be dealt with too harshly, he said.

When more than 30 students at Kalimantan's Pahandut Palangka Raya High School fell into a trance in November, they blamed a spirit in a nearby tree. During the morning flag-raising ceremony, one of the girls started screaming and couldn't move. Soon her friends joined in until more than 30 of them were screaming and fainting, the deputy principal, Friskila said. Some of the girls woke from the trance after a student played a Muslim prayer ring tone on her mobile phone. Others were taken by their parents to local witchdoctors.

Friskila, however, favours a less superstitious explanation.
They are bored, tired and then this happened, she said. They all got a day off school.

Literature:

Beatty, Andrew: Varieties of Javanese Religion : An Anthropological account (Cambridge Studies in Social and Cultural Anthropology, March 1999) Becker, Judith: Gamelan Stories Tantrism Islam and Aesthetics in Central Java (1993)
Geels, Antoon: Subud and the Javanese mystical tradition (1997)
Geertz,Clifford: "The Religion of Java".(1960)
Gonda,J.:"Sanskrit in Indonesia" (New Delhi 1973)
Hadiwijono, Harun: "Man in the Present Javanese Mysticism" (Thesis, Amsterdam, 1968)
Headley, Stephen C.: From Cosmogonony to exorcism in a Javanese Genesis: The spilt seed (2000)
Howe,D.G.: "Sumarah, a study of the art of living" (Doctoral dissertation, Chapel Hill 1980) Howell, Julia Day. 1989. ``States of Consciousness and Javanese Ecstatics.'' In 'Creating Indonesian Cultures', edited by P. Alexander. Sydney: Oceania Press. (1989)
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Kroef, J.M.van der: "New Religious Sects in Java"(1959)
Lewis,I.M.:"Ecstatic Religion"(1971)
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Mulder, Niels: "Mysticism and Everyday Life in Contemporary Java" (Singapore 1978)
Mulder, Niels: "Mysticism in Java" (Amsterdam, 1997)
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Sitompul, P.P.: "Susila Budhi Dharma. Subud - International Mystic movement of Indonesia" (Dissertation, Claremont 1974)
Stange, Paul: "The Sumarah movement in Javanese mysticism " (Thesis, Madison 1980)
Paul Stange: The evolution of Sumarah (revised and updated thesis in a 1.3MB pdf file)
Wilson, Ian Douglas: The politics of inner power: The practice of Pencak Silat in West-Java (thesis)
Woodward R.: Islam in Java. Normative Piety and Mysticism in the Sultanate of Yogyakarta (The University of Arizona Press, Tucson, 1989)

The abovementioned doctoral documents are available from University Microfilms International, Ann Arbor MI 48106 and London WC1R 4EJ, UK

Taken from: http://www.xs4all.nl/~wichm/javmys1.html

Under control

2008-06-02T03:36:00.000-07:00

Kalau saja,
Kalau saja semua, semua hal yang kita tau, yang menjadi masalah kita, under our control.
Semua masalah, kita udah tau jawabannya, semua halangan, kita sudah tahu bagaimana mengatasi, apa yang akan datang besok, kita udah tau apa itu, apa yang bakal menimpa kita, kita sudah mengenalinya so kita bisa siapin smua antisipasi untuk menghadapinya.
wow wow wow...
Sungguh nggak seru hidup ini.
Dimana tantangannya, di mana seninya, di mana proses belajarnya?
apa yang bisa kita petik kalau kita sudah tau semua, kesempatan-kesempatan baru untuk mempelajari hal-hal baru juga, tidak akan pernah ada.

Memang, hidup ini banyak yang mengatakan berat, susah,
ya inilah hidup, ada beratnya ada susahnya..
Tapi,..
Bukankah dari situ kita belajar?
Bukankah dari situ kita mendapatkan banyak hal, berjuta kesempatan untuk menjadi lebih baik dan maju?
dari situ kita akan tau bagaimana kita bisa beradaptasi dengan masalah, melewatinya bukan kok malah menghindarinya..menyaring apa yang bermanfaat bukan kok malah membuangnya karena pahit.

Yahh... hidup kadang kala bermasalah, tapi dari situ anda bisa tahu siapa anda, anda bisa mengenali cara anda memecahkan masalah.
Lalaui dan jangan hindari..
petiklah berjuta kesempatan dan kemungkinan bagus yang ada dalam masalah anda..
Dan hidup ini bakalan lebih colorfull, indah, seru, banyak tantangan, dan..mengasyikkan...

Never Quit

2008-05-27T00:07:00.000-07:00

The only way to lose is to quit. As long as you continue
to make the effort, you have not lost.

Everyone experiences setbacks. However, those who
achieve the most experience the most setbacks because
they persist as long as it takes to reach each goal.

Does it ever seem that you are blocked in every
direction? That's the time to get creative, become
more flexible, and open yourself to the possibilities
that are most certainly there.

Sometimes when you get stuck in a rut, the rut can
suddenly and unexpectedly run out. What a great
opportunity that can be for you to climb out of
that rut, look around, and see all the valuable
things you've been missing.

Never quit. Use each setback, each disappointment,
and each success, as a cue to push on ahead with
more determination than ever before.

Never quit, and you will create the life you choose.

Ralph Marston

Fredom from anger

2008-05-16T22:15:00.000-07:00

Pikirkan

2008-05-15T00:25:00.000-07:00

Pikirkan,
Pikirkan betapa egoisnya kita ketika kita selalu berusaha mencari keuntungan lebih dan lebih dan lupa memberi,
Pikirkan bagimana egoisnya kita ketika kita menuntut dan selalu menuntut lebih kepada pasangan kita dan tidak meningkatkan mutu dan kualitas sikap serta perlakuan kita kepadanya,
Hidup ini adalah saling,
Saling melengkapi, saling memberi, saling menghormati dan sebagainya. Ketika kita ingin menjadi seorang pemberi yang baik, kita juga harus menjdi seorang penerima yang baik. Ketika kita ingin dimengerti, kita juga harus mengerti. Saling mengerti.

Sekedar mengingatkan pada diri saya apa yang harus saya lakukan.

Avatar Book 3 eps. 14 dan 15

2008-05-10T01:39:00.000-07:00

Akhirnya,
Avatar book 3 eps 14 Keluar juga, meski beritanya saya udah telat ngedengernya. Soalnya sangking lamanya, sampai lupa kalo nunggu-nunggu.
ughh.. penasaran banget,
Terakhir nonton, saat prince Zuko akhirnya menjadi guru Aang dalam fire bending.
Meski akhirnya mereka bersama-sama berguru pada the true fire bender, 2 ekor Naga.
Baru mau didownload nih, eps. 14 nya. jadi belum tau jalan ceritanya gimana lagi.
Nah... ternyata eps 15 nya juga udah keluar..
waaah makin penasaran nih kayak apa si Aang dan si Zuko.

Zuko, salah satu tokoh yang saya sukai, kenapa? Karena dia jadi tokoh antagonis yang jahat dulunya, yang akan melakukan apa saja untuk menangkap dan membunuh Aang. Tapi ternyata nuraninya akhirnya menang dan berpihak kepada kebenaran.
Beruntunglah dia punya seorang paman yang hebat.
Paman yang dulunya seharusnya sudah menghabisi 2 naga terakhir yang akhirnya menjad guru fire bending Aang dan Zuko, tapi dia berbohong kepada Raja Api bahwa dia telah membunuh naga-naga ini, dan menyelamatkan mereka dari kepunahan.

Sambil nunggu download yang cukup lama, sekitar 700 MB, ngopi dulu aah...
btw, kalau mau ikut download,
nih linknya

Episode 14
Download di sini

Episod3 15
Download di sini

Muternya pake real player ya..

Mengeluh

2008-05-08T04:20:00.000-07:00

Mengeluh tempaknya sudah menjadi bagian dari keseharian hidup kita saya kira, meskipun tidak untuk semua orang. Kita sakit,kita mengeluh, sedih mengeluh, tidak punya uang, kita juga mengeluh. Pendek kata apabila kita mengalami sesuatu yang tidak sesuai dengan keinginan, kita akan mengeluarkan keluhan-keluhan kita, baik itu di dalam hati, atapun di ungkapkan dalam tulisan atau juga di ungkapkan secara lisan kepada teman, sahabat ataupun keluarga.

Namun di balik itu semua, mari kita coba kembali merenungkan, apa kira-kira manfaat dari mengeluh, apa hasil positif dari mengeluh?

Mengeluh tak lain dan tak bukan, hanya akan semakin menjerumuskan kita ke dalam situasi yang semakin sulit. Misalkan saja saat sebelum mengeluh kesulitan kita, kalau dapat dihitung adalah sejumah X, dan setelah kita mengeluh saya yakin kesulitan itu akan bertambah sejumah lebih dari X.

Terlalu banyak mengeluh akan menciptakan rasa yang selalu mengasihani diri sendiri, tidak rela kalau orang lain lebih menderita dari pada dirinya. Misalkan ketika si A bilang "duh bulan ini pengeluaran saya banyak sekali, sekarang hutang saya banyak, saya tak punya uang". Biasanya seorang pengeluh akan menimpali dengan kata-kata yang lebih seperti "waah, kamu baru sebulan, saya lho.. sepanjang hidup saya utang dan susah".
Seorang pengeluh juga akan secara tidak sadar bangga akan penderitaan yang dialaminya sehingga dia akan secara tidak sadar pula mendramatisir penderitaannya itu.

sampai di sini tentang mengeluh.. sudahkan anda memikirkan manfaatnya?..
bagaimana?... tidak ada kan?

Perlu di ingat bahwa mengeluh juga mengeluarkan tenaga. membuang energy, dan.. hanya dibuang untuk hal yang percuma dan tidak bermanfaat..
kenapa kita tidak mencoba berpikit positif, membalik keluhan-keluhan kita menjadi pijakan untuk berusaha lebih keras, menjadikannya sebagai cambuk yang akan membuat kita selalu bersemangat mengubah hidup kita menjadi lebih baik.
energy yang kitab uang untuk mengeluh, bisa kita alokasikan untuk memikirkan cara-cara terbaik lepas dari kesulitan. mencari jalan untuk bisa menikmati apa yang ada. Dan bisa mensyukuri apapun yang di dapatkan.

Hidup akan sangat nyaman dan tentram bila kita selalu bisa menyukuri apa yang didapat, berapapun jumlahnya, apapun bentuknya semua pasti punya sisi baik.

Memang ada banyak hal yangtak bisa berubah di dalam hidup ini, namun banyak pula hal yang.bisa berubah. Untuk hal-hal yang tak bisa berubah, kenapa kita takmencoba menjadikannya sebagai dasar pijakan langkah kita? menjadikannya sebagai panduan dalam menyelesaikan masalah-masalah yang ada? menjadikannya sebagai guru karena dari hal itu akan banyak sekali timbul variasi-variasi kemungkinan pemecahan masalah.
Dan untuk hal-hal yang dapat berubah sudah selayaknya kita mengolahnya dengan benar,dengan cara yang positif, dengan cara yang selalu berorientasi ke depan.

Jadi, marikita tinjaukembali, apakah kita masih sering mengeluh, mengasihani diri sendiri, dan semacamnya?

Indah

2008-05-08T04:19:00.000-07:00

seperti aliran embun pagi yang menghunjam lembut ke dalam relung dahagaku,
kurasakan sesuatu yang aneh mengalir dalam pembuluh-pembuluh darahku..
mengucurkan sebuah tekad yang hangat..
sebuah keyakinan nan lembut untuk mengalirkan hidupku pada sebuah jalan yang begitu indah ku lihat..
dan betapa ingin ku bisikkan semua ini di kupingmu

betapa ingin ku bersujud bersama di depanNya

mati

2008-05-08T04:16:00.000-07:00

Dingin...hening..senyap..tenang..tenggelam dan tanpa nafas.. kubayangkan aku dalam pelukan air bening yang memelukku erat tak di lepaskan.merebut nafasku dan menyatukanku dengan Yang Esa. Sesak..sakit..bahkan suara teriakan pun tak keluar ketika air itu menggantikan udara di paru-paruku yang menghidupi alveoli alveoli.. menyaringkan oksigen untuk pasokan bahan bakar tubuhku..
aah.. ini gila..
biarkan aku hidup lebih lama..

Betapa

2008-05-08T04:02:00.000-07:00

Aku lihat seorang perempuan, berjalan menenteng busur dan anak panah sore itu, badannya seksi rupanya elok. Dari penampilannya aku yakin dia bukan seorang pemburu, karena selain dia seksi juga yang di punggungnya bukan seekor kijang mati atau kelinci berlumur darah.Di punggungnya ada sebuah tas punggung yang menggelendot memeluknya.
Dia seorang penari.
yang menarikan tari-tari alus, juga tari perang..
waah aku langsung berpikir, betapa hebatnya manusia ini, perang sajabisa jadi sesuatu yang indah, yang menarik perhatian, yang enak untuk di tonton, yang bisa menghasilkan uang..
Sama sekali unsur kekerasan, darah, kematian, kejahatan dan kehilangan yang ada dalam perang musnah. berganti dengan kemolekan, kecantikan dan keindahan gerak para penarinya.
mengagumkan bukan?
buah kreasi manusia..

Lalu pikiranku aku bawa agak ke atas lagi, betapa Agung dan Besarnya yang menciptakan manusia.
menciptakan keindahan para penari itu, menciptakan otak dan hati para manusia pencipta tarian itu, menciptakan atmosphere keindahan di setiap jiwa manusia...
Betapa indahnya Dia..

Keputusan kita

2008-05-08T04:01:00.000-07:00

Ya. kita sendiri yang memutuskan apa sesuatu itu baik atau buruk bagi kita, apa sesuatu itu enak atau tidak bagi kita
Itu hanyalah masalah anggapan dan pendapat. Bahwa hal ini nyaman, hal itu memuakkan, hal lain menyakitkan
Paling enak, kalau kita selalu bisa menikmati apa yang ada, melihat dari sisi positif dan menanggapinya dengan tepat.

Fokus pada hal yang positif, instead of the negative side..
ketika kita jatuh, kenapa kita tidak fokus pada apa yang bisa mambuat kita bangun lagi, kenapa kita hanya fokus pada kejatuhan kita, berlarut larut menggeluti kesedihan...

manusia, lagi-lagi manusia, dan kita hanya manusia yang tidak bisa selamanya melangkah di jalan yang tepat.

Harmoni

2008-05-08T04:00:00.000-07:00

Suatu ketika,waktu saya sedang duduk-susuk merokok sambil, mendengarkan miles davis, tiba-tiab melintas di pikiran saya bayangan begitu banyak orang, dengan berbagai macam pemikiran, dengan berbagai macam pribadi yang berbeda. Dengan sangat sederhana saya tanyakan kepada diri saya sendiri, kok bisa ya, banyak orang yang berbeda menjadi satu dan rukun.

Lalu saya melihat kembali hubungan antar orang-orang itu, kemudian saya melihat adanya harmoni, adanya pertalian diantara perbedaan itu, adanya kondisi saling melengkapi. seperti musik yang sedang saya dengarkan.
Sekian banyak instrument musik itu, sekian banyak manusia itu, tidak bisa di satukan, tapi dari mereka bisa di ciptakan sebuah harmoni, bisa di ciptakan sebuah keselarasan hingga semua bisa berjalan seperti yang seharusnya

Perubahan

2008-05-08T03:55:00.000-07:00

Demikian bagi sebagian besar orang. perubahan itu menakutkan. Perubahan itu membawa sesuatu hal yang baru ke dalam hidup kita. Perubahan itu mengurangi atau bahkan menghilangkan hal-hal yang telah ada dalam hidup kita.

Tapi benarkah kita harus takut pada perubahan? untuk perubahan ke arah yang lebih baik memang sudah seharusnya kita senang, tapi untuk perubahan ke arah yang "kita anggap" lebih buruk, haruskah kita takut?
"Kita anggap" lebih buruk, benarkah itu nantinya akan menjadi buruk? bukankah kita belum mengalaminya? bukankah kita belum menjejakkan kaki kita di atas jalan-jalan baru kita itu? Kita manusia dengan kemampuan beradaptasi yang demikian hebatnya ini, akan menyesuaikan diri dengan keadaan yang kita anggap lebih buruk itu.

Kalau kita akan berjalan, sudah seharusnya kita punya gambaran akan jalan yang akan kita tempuh itu. kita susah seharusnya membuat peta jalan-jalan itu, dan meperkirakan dimana dia akan berakhir, sehingga kita akan dengan nyaman menjejakkan kaki di sana.
Meskipun pertamanya terlihat buruk, mungkin tersimpan berjuta manfaat di sana, berjuta pelajaran berharga untuk memetakan jalan-jalan lain yang nantinya harus kita tempuh.

perubahan itu menakutkan!!....

limabelas hari setelah ku mati

2008-05-05T03:15:00.000-07:00

limabelas hari setelah aku mati,
bernyanyilah karna aku tlah pergi.

limabelas hari setelah aku mati,
bulan kan berseri karna ku pergi saat dia sembunyi

maka bakarlah kemenyan wangi biar perayaan itu tak tampak basi
Bergembiralah karna ku tlang menghadap Yang Suci
tak ada lagi getirnya hati
tak ada lagi sakitnya duri

limabelas hari setelah ku mati
jangan kau ingat aku lagi, dan jangan jadikan hidupmu sepi..

pilihan hidup

2008-05-03T00:35:00.000-07:00

Ada banyak sekali alasan untuk kita bisa memaafkan diri sendiri. Tapi, kenapa kita sering kali membuang waktu dan energy hanya untuk mengasihani diri sendiri?
Ya.. memang gampang mencari alasan, yang terbaik sekalipun untuk lari dan menghindar dari apa (hal buruk) yang terjadi pada kita sekarang. Tapi hasilnya apa? tidak ada selain alasan-alasan yang tak berguna dan tidak membangun.

Dalam beberapa kondisi, orang sering kali menempatkan dirinya menjadi "korban". Akan tetapi, sebagian lagi orang yang bisa berpikir positif, yang sedang dalam kondisi yang sama, justru menganggap kondisi buruk itu sebagai sebuah kesempatan bagus untuk mengembangkan diri dan belajar lagi dan belajar lagi.
Ketika kita mengangap hidup ini menyebalkan, berat, tidak enak, tidak nyaman, kejam, dan semacamnya, maka hal-hal semacam itulah yang akan anda dapatkan. secara tidak sadar kita akan membelokkan hidup kita menjadi seperti anggapan kita. Tapi kalau kita beranggapan hidup ini indah dan penuh banyak kesempatan bagus, kita merasa beruntung bisa hidup dan memiliki apa yang anda miliki sekarang, bersyukur atas apa adanya kita sekarang, hidup ini benar-benar akan menjadi hidup yang kita idam-idamkan.

Apapun yang terjadi dalam hidup ini, kegagalan semacam apapun yang menimpa kita. Hidup ini akan menjadi apapun yang kita pilih. Pilihlah yang paling positif dan baik untuk kita. jauhkan dari setiap pikiran negatif yang mungkin mampir dan bersarang di benak kita.

Ikhlas

2008-04-23T03:50:00.000-07:00

Adalah suatu hal sederhana yang saya temukan ketika ngobrol dengan seorang kawan, Ikhlas. Tampak simple, tapi ternyata begitu sulit menjalaninya. Kenapa?

Sering kali, kita mengulur-ulur sebuah urusan yang sebenarnya simple dan telah selesei, dan menjadikannya panjang dan terus terpatri di pikiran kita, sehingga membuang keikhlasan yang seharusnya tumbuh ketika melakukan hal itu.

Ketika kita memberikan uang pada pengemis, sebenarnya, urusan kita selesei sampai ketika pengemis itu menerima, ntah mau terima kasih atau tidak, dan kita ikhlas.
Selesei, finish, habis.
Kita niat beramal, pahala, tentunya Tuhan yang tau, dan urusan kita selesei, ntah mau di buat apa uang itu nantinya, yang penting kita ikhlas.
Dalam banyak hal, kita masih memikirkan, "wah jangan-jangan pengemis itu penghasilannya lebih dari saya, waah jangan-jangan nanti uangnya buat ini, buat itu" dan sebagainya. Hal itu jelas memperpanjang urusan kita yang telah selesei tadi, unsur iklhas menjadi hilang karena kita masih khawatir akan uang kita.
rasa tidak rela menyeruak muncul di hati kita, dengan bayangan bahwa uang tadi akan digunakan untuk keperluan negatif.

ya..
sering kali kita harus menganggap sebuah urusan selesei..karena memang sudah selesei

kendali

2007-12-08T06:20:00.000-08:00

ada begitu banyak godaan dalam hidup, ada begitu banyak alasan menghindari dan melakukan sesuatu, tapi.. yang terpenting adalah anda harus selalu unya alasan untuk bisa mengontrol diri sendiri. anda harus selalu ingat untuk mengontrol diri, mengendalikan diri anda sendiri..sadarilah bahwa anda selalu melakukan segala sesuatu dengan sadar. hal-hal yang anda anggap di luar kontrol pun, sebenarnya masih di dalam kontrol anda kok, hanya saja langkah yang anda ambil, pilihan yang anda ambil ternyata akibatnya tidak seperti yang anda harapkan, jadi yaa anda masukkkan dalam kategori tidak terkontrol.

Ingatlah, anda selalu bisa memilih melakukan apa, memilih akan anda jadikan apa hidup anda, memilih akan melangkah kemana dan anda selalu dalam kendali yang benar.